tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52102412011-04-22T08:43:14.246+08:00I G N I T I O Nthe show must go on
hopes dashed
dreams drowned in tears
IGNITION
start over!Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comBlogger371100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1096132595028831772004-09-26T01:15:00.000+08:002004-09-26T01:16:35.026+08:00this blog is officially closed.
depressing place.
for new reads,
http://belleofdeball.blogspot.comCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1065027016702253892003-10-02T00:50:00.000+08:002003-10-02T00:50:16.983+08:00wrapped
confined
desolate corner
alone
silent
cold
arms wrapped
huddled
eyes
welled with tears
time
on fastforward
yet
i
a standstill
lost
blindfolded
i wonder
shrieking darkness
shadows
yet
formless
spinning
throbbing beats
i hear
head
fallen back
surrender
i surrender
lost
know not
what i feel
how i feel
why i feel
sleep
unwelcomed
the darkness
screams
horrified
in that corner
i hide
my eyesCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1061918063455223992003-08-27T01:14:00.000+08:002003-08-27T01:14:23.470+08:00Confessions
For me?
My heart
Pounds
We’ve just met
Its really
Not possible
Almost
Strangers
Lest
Love?
You confess?
I dare not believe
A moment’s
Reaction
Hasty
Sudden
A mistake?
Rational decision
Thinking
Too much
Love?
You confess?
I dare not believe
Love
I shudder
My enemy
It hurt
Shun away
My decision
But
Weak,
My heart stays
The yearning
I confess
But strangers
So much…
Undiscovered
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1061480700778836022003-08-21T23:45:00.000+08:002003-08-21T23:45:00.663+08:00* has it been a week since my birthday!?! i nv did realise! a week into 16 - not much has changed really! whole worlds counting down to prelims. 16 i think. made a promise to someone id study. and i will. YOU better be bowling next year!*
ruthless
the tongue
stabs
daggers
thrown
thoughtless
victims
unknowing
innocent
my heart
target
of one such
bled
dry
pain
sour
tight strangle
i suffer
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1060710130457148842003-08-13T01:42:00.000+08:002003-08-13T01:42:10.453+08:00 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHARLENE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
gosh..16 already! sweet 16!
i'm gettin old!
cheers mates!
muackz!!
* i make a wish for u *Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1060467392912884692003-08-10T06:16:00.000+08:002003-08-10T06:16:32.886+08:00tears
stain
i shiver
uncontrollable
hands
grasp tight
a cry
in
helpless agony
why!
wearily
i premitted
your entrance
afraid
yet
willing
a glimpse of
happines
in you
i saw so clear
i.......
i saw wrong
why!
rope
to hold on
u promised
love
u delivered
for how long
i
released
hung out of
love
drunk
from
hurt
too quickly
u came
why!
dont be
another
mistake
wrong
after wrong
never
get it
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1060407410216446562003-08-09T13:36:00.000+08:002003-08-09T13:36:50.076+08:00years pass
days cross by
where?
have they went?
were they
just
mere minutes
of nothingness
or treasured
pasts
precious
memories?
chanes
many slipped
did i miss my mark?
were they my mistakes?
unclear questions
yet
unwanted
to be answer
future
never told
patiently
at the corner
i await
the coming of age
only 16
yet
i want more
retrained by
youth
contained by
rules
'grant me - liberation of Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1059746653626656862003-08-01T22:04:00.000+08:002003-08-01T22:04:13.590+08:00PREJUDICE
trapped
education, hear my yearning call
grant me
the gift of knowledge
free me from
PREJUDICE against women
trapped
role of the dutiful daughter
grant me
liberation of choice
free me from
expectations of traditions
__________________________
trapped
dull conventionality
grant me
release of passion
free me from
tentacles of the norm!
trapped
narrow-minded system
grant me
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1059245384952209772003-07-27T02:49:00.000+08:002003-07-27T02:49:44.916+08:00who's charlene?
i love my name. not belle charlene - tts too formal. just simple charlene. feminine, yet with an edge. classy, yet down to earth. is that me? i'm far more than just 4 adjectives.
i dare say (holding my head high) , i'm different. anybody can say that - but truthfully, honestly, ahh..that's a different thing.
i'm beautiful. some may disagree. my parents, both blessed with Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1058978691184254782003-07-24T00:44:00.000+08:002003-07-24T00:54:47.300+08:00love
i yearn for love
the embrace
the security
the love
hold me
are you there
emptiness
i feel
left alone
deserted
lost
desperation
insignificant
i feel
unwanted
unimportant
love me
anybody?
call for help
999
emergency?
i need rescue
rescue
from desolation
rescue
from loneliness
rescue
from the pain
i crave
love
the knowing
of importance
let me
love
let me
be loved
the constant
the Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1057247850746272152003-07-03T23:57:00.000+08:002003-07-04T00:13:36.210+08:00hypocritism
backstabbers
lifeless
frustration
trapped
i am
not
who i truly am
hidden beneath
trapped
unconventional
different
despised?
liberation
grant me
mistaken
paths
wrongly chosen
yet
i
cant turn back
regrets
though many
unforsaken
passion
simmered
desire
broken
yearning
done away
follow
in line
the norm
conventionality
obvious right
yet,
i feel
trapped
take me
for my
differenceCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1056746375481557182003-06-28T04:39:00.000+08:002003-06-28T04:39:49.396+08:00stood up
turned away
moved on
emergency repair
did the job
deep jagged scar
looks good
adds life
taken for granted
the tables
turned
begging
hungry puppy
tempting
isnt it?
hands off
uve had your chance
innocence
not to be toyed with
distractions
enough already
priorities
straightened
bumpy ride
grab on tight
knuckles
whittening
i must hold on
feet
firmed
i will not fall
pain
a great teacherCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-1056744924721765872003-06-28T04:15:00.000+08:002003-06-28T04:15:24.710+08:00* drum roll *
ladies and gentlemen....
the one..
the only...
Charlene!!
yea, i'm back in action! Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-948778092003-05-26T09:33:00.000+08:002003-05-26T09:33:14.543+08:00
reflection
time passed
wounds
mending
though not healed
anger?
no more
a tear,
for lost times
lost memories
so many
what ifs
a miss of heartbeat
rekindles with
the mere mention of your name
yet
the love
though still around
weighed down
untouched
left to swivle
like sand
on a sea bed
undisturbed
gentle
quiet
yet once provoked
whirlwinds into chaos
my heart
wrapped
tight
i dare Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-933701842003-04-28T09:33:00.000+08:002003-04-28T09:33:10.886+08:00
my com's been down for quite some time now..and well, for those of u who constantly come here for your daily dose of nonsense of charlene's life...a thousand apologies!! the only time my brain actually functions properly is during the night (maybe tt's why i cant seem to study in the day!) ..but sadly, i only have access to the net in school..so sigh.. i have thought of writing my Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-933690712003-04-28T09:10:00.000+08:002003-04-28T09:10:51.423+08:00
*~* Another lovely poem by my dear denise mei mei.. about.. ME! lol! *~*
*~* i think its really nice (bhb ah!)! thank u so much mei! =) love ya lots! *~*
Captivating many with such beauty,
Her heart, filled with magnanimity,
Awe-inspiring personality of a girl,
Revealing the utmost beauty of her.
Life is beautiful with her by my side,
Everything would just seem so right.
Nothing will Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-931553532003-04-24T11:42:00.000+08:002003-04-24T11:42:32.220+08:00
who have i forsaken
who's tears have i caused
what sin so deadly
have i commited
what evil so power
have i
been tempted
questions
once again
in search of answers
momentary happiness
shortlived
undeserved?
my sunshine
stolen away
robbed from my grasp
gloom
misery
confusion
anger
have they not died?
cheated
i thought they left
never
hid around unseen corners
lurking
hunting
watchingCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-927873572003-04-18T01:00:00.000+08:002003-04-18T01:00:52.420+08:00
good friday
the celebration of
a death
good?
the world lost its saviour!
then again
the celebration of
great love
who
who poccess
such strength of love
to suffer
sacrifice
to give
everything
for
ungrateful heathens
beasts who scorn
destroy
kill
so undeserved
yet,
love...
redemned us
dont people appreciate
such unexplainable power
why?
why does chaos still reign?
will peace ever
see the Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-926439202003-04-15T19:44:00.000+08:002003-04-15T19:46:13.000+08:00
resumption of the norm
thrust with
dailing responsibilities
hardly a moment's rest
hectic!
rush!
no time to stop!
a linking chain
never-ending?
i love this!
every minute
spent
idle no more
catching a breather
my tired mind
snoozes
well deserved
rewinding the tape
precious moments
wasted
spent without
purpose
but of course
no turning back
long journey ahead
what's the outcome?
maybe Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-923804952003-04-11T04:10:00.000+08:002003-04-11T04:10:02.920+08:00
i wonder
why
only when hearts
ache
only when tears
tear
only when rain
falls
does
the mind come alive
words, thoughts, images
conjure and conquer
people say
words of the greatest songs
come not from the pen
but
the tear of the heart
colours of the greatest painting
come not from the palette
but from
the red passion of love
the green thrust of jealousy
the blue gloom of loneliness
whyCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-922347132003-04-09T02:05:00.000+08:002003-04-09T02:05:21.310+08:00
deaths
day by day
lives are taken
gone far away
tears shed
misery suffered
when will all this end
innocent lives
lost with a blast
just that split second
all is over
is life really
that fickle
life brings so many
ups and downs
its so hard to
get thru life
yet
its so easy
to end
a press of a button
a solid hit
everything's black - death
the cruel silence
death
comes up to u
without a Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-920502372003-04-06T02:39:00.000+08:002003-04-06T02:39:31.920+08:00
i saw
your eyes
the same dazzling pair
on telly
movie- white palace
actor- james spader
your eyes
the identical stare u pocess
those intense
captivating
pair of diamonds
whisks my breath away
holding me hostage
falling deep
into those magical trances
i miss your eyes
i miss staring straight into them
feels as though
u're reading my thoughts
searching my soul
your eyes
they do wonders
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-920020192003-04-05T04:19:00.000+08:002003-04-05T04:19:51.576+08:00
life is sweet
suddenly
i dont feel sad
anymore
tears disappeared
heartaches flown away
the smiles
all coming home
it feels great
giving my poor mind a break
its been doing overtime
for way too long
my eyes can finally
call it a day
my lips have been turned
upset down for far too long
i'm smiling now
its true
where did all that sadness go?
clueless
they just left
after the phone call
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-918515942003-04-03T00:37:00.000+08:002003-04-03T00:37:51.983+08:00
for once
i'm not crying
for once
i'm not sad
for once
i'm smiling
things did not turn out so bad.
mutual agreement
friends
full stop
period
no feelings
no nothing
forever friends he said
sounds lovely
doesnt it?
here's the tough part
erase all feelings
lock up all memories
it all over
pack up, time to go
hope u enjoyed the show
a new chapter
soon to unveil
a lasting friendship in Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-918368272003-04-02T19:26:00.000+08:002003-04-02T19:26:09.936+08:00
another beautiful poem from denise mei...
she's so good at this!
the poem truly expresses my every thought
every feeling
thank u so much mei!
~~*~~*~~*~~
like a stab in my heart,
a sudden impact that seems so hard,
which will leave a hurting scar behind.
some things are just so hard to find,
the words i feel to form a line.
i wish that all these was just a dream,
perpetual Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-918302872003-04-02T16:00:00.000+08:002003-04-02T16:00:35.420+08:00
my heart beat races
i heard your voice
that familiar melody
i yearned so long
u wanted to
talk
your decision
of this
situation
one month is barely
up
why now?
something i would not like to hear
u warned
suspicion grows
in less than 2 weeks
u seemed so
sure
confident
of what u feel
that is never u!
always unsure
undetermined
is this u at all?
i'm afraid
i'm terribly afraid
should i Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-917832122003-04-02T01:50:00.000+08:002003-04-02T01:50:12.686+08:00
yet another page
of happy memories filled
day filled with laughs,
joy
happiness
i miss this feeling
a risk taken
but worthwhile it was
but once again
as night fell
thoughts of u
freed from their chambers
but perhaps
weary and tired from a
long day
they did me
no harm
no tears
no pain
just longing for u
missing u
wondering
do u miss me too?
- absence makes the heart grow fonder -
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-917186182003-04-01T01:22:00.000+08:002003-04-02T01:21:10.000+08:00
where have they gone
those lovely memories
when i could
confidently say
u loved me
u needed me
u wanted me
looking back
it seems as though
the U i knew dont exist anymore
a complete change
where have u gone?
has the cameloen changed its colors?
or have u,
as i fear
lost interest in me?
like the lastest fashio trends
being stashed into the store
am i just a toy?
has the little boy
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-917011072003-03-31T18:57:00.000+08:002003-03-31T19:02:10.000+08:00
a lovely poem...from denise mei mei =)
thank u so much! love ya! u rawk!
~*~*~*~*
knowing that my love for you is true
but sad to know i cant have you
feel my heart like a dagger stab thru
oh my god, what wrong did i do
have i done something that i dont deserve you
even if i do everything for you like a fool
even if the sea remains blue
will you actually Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-916565092003-03-31T01:45:00.000+08:002003-03-31T01:47:38.000+08:00
nightfall once again
all is silence
crickets awaken, their calls loud and clear
funny, i've never recalled their calls
so loud..so disturbing
perhaps, drowned out by your voice
whispering through the phone
though just a phonecall
never thought much of it before
i miss it so
your sweet good nights
and (i hope) sincere care
welcomed me into slumber
with such lovely arms
- see u in Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-916048062003-03-29T23:28:00.000+08:002003-03-29T23:31:11.000+08:00
busy day
but never a second were my thoughts
drawn from u
town was expectedly less crowded..
kept my eyes open
hoping to spot u
eh? did u just walk past my table?
nope, my mistake
hang on? isnt that u on the escalator?
oops, wrong again.
then again, why see u?
would that change anything?
would i miss u less?
no!
the whole day spent
wishing to catch a glimpse of u
then again,
i wasCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-915450212003-03-28T21:49:00.000+08:002003-03-28T21:52:16.000+08:00
my mom exploded..again
thrice this week
my brother's at it again.
whats wrong with him?
why doesnt he listen?
he's only 12
tender defiance..whats gonna happen?
mommy's baby...
her precious son..
all the attention..
all the love
gone to waste!
does he not appreciate everything?
pain from mom's voice..
doesnt he feel it
she hates it, she loves him too much
she has no choice..tho it Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-915333622003-03-28T15:42:00.000+08:002003-03-28T16:39:29.000+08:00
- love takes no less than everything -
dreamless slumber, thank u god.
as much as i love the sensation
snug under the sheets
warm...cosy....
remember those endless nights?
smiles, laughs and tears shared?
where did it all go?
memories, desperate to be relived
never possible?
-sigh-
i fear slumber
only in slumber..am i absolutely helpless
myCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-914898382003-03-28T01:14:00.000+08:002003-03-28T16:38:13.000+08:00
* ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ *
the sky is dark..
can't see the moon
stars twinkling..
wind's getting strong..
the aircon's on but i left the windows open...
dont ask why..juz felt like it
maybe i'm hoping for an angel to come in?
maybe i'm hoping for some love letter to drift into my room?
that is so nonsense!
why am i wasting such a lovely night cooped in my room...feeling sad?
the Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-914839742003-03-27T23:29:00.000+08:002003-03-28T16:38:34.000+08:00
success!!!
the cake is delicious!!
smooth...fluffy...soft... yummy!!!
its a miracle..considering i cant cook for nuts!! -heez-
does this mean kelvin misses me?
or is it just god making me happy??
i'm happy now..tt's all that matters!
wish kelvin could try it...he'd love it!
-sigh-
-smiles-
i think i'm just a silly girl in love..
but for now..i'm happy... tt's all that matters =)
Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-914712332003-03-27T18:08:00.000+08:002003-03-28T01:17:02.000+08:00
juz came back from groceries!
since i'm so depressed..i'm juz gonna pig out!
bought cake mix..butter-choc fudge cake...yummy!
but whats the joy of baking a cake..
if u have no one to bake it for..
bake it for kelvin? good idea
but he's not gonna have a chance to taste it?
i'll just eat his share as well..
if its good..i'll do it again after this 1month is over..
if not..i guess not fatedCharlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5210241.post-914609462003-03-27T13:23:00.000+08:002003-03-28T01:16:36.000+08:00
life hasnt been very friendly to me lately.
school problems are always around..bugging me from every corner..
bowling's kinda screwing up...man i hate vickie!
my love life is rockier than the canadian rockies...
my bro is becoming so damn pissifying..
u kinda get the picture.
life without kelvin's been..well...miserable!
i hate to admit it..but i'm missing him like crazy!
he's not Charlenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00922947827036748045noreply@blogger.com